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Tuesday, March 10, 2009
To die is gain
I ate noodles and meefen at 2 for lunch; odeh odeh for tea at 4; mee rubus and nasi goreng for dinner at 5; bread and eggs for supper at 11. my most irregular day ever.
This week had been pretty good. A lovely time of rest after the mid terms were over.. no deadlines near enough to give me stress, no lab reports due, no tests. wow, incredible! Lately, I've observed that more people seem to be passing away, not sure why; maybe it's indeed so; maybe i've become more aware of death then i used to be. Death - it's a funny thing. Some people mourn and dwell in sadness all the days of their lives; yet others, though sad, celebrate another's passing / reunion with his Savior. To me, i don't think i've yet to truly understand what Death might be; nor have i completely absorbed what has happened so far - all i know is that to live is Christ, and to die is gain (Philippians 1:21) - who are we to curse God and swear? who are we to determine what our lives might be? As so far, with all that i've been through, i'd say that it's been hard accepting the truth, really difficult being optimistic all the way, and even more tiring to live life as i did before; yet I am placing all my hope in God because Jesus is the only way. I know that with all the ups and downs of life, Jesus is in control. Hallelujah!
On a less moanful note, i'm really enjoying lab work! :)
This week had been pretty good. A lovely time of rest after the mid terms were over.. no deadlines near enough to give me stress, no lab reports due, no tests. wow, incredible! Lately, I've observed that more people seem to be passing away, not sure why; maybe it's indeed so; maybe i've become more aware of death then i used to be. Death - it's a funny thing. Some people mourn and dwell in sadness all the days of their lives; yet others, though sad, celebrate another's passing / reunion with his Savior. To me, i don't think i've yet to truly understand what Death might be; nor have i completely absorbed what has happened so far - all i know is that to live is Christ, and to die is gain (Philippians 1:21) - who are we to curse God and swear? who are we to determine what our lives might be? As so far, with all that i've been through, i'd say that it's been hard accepting the truth, really difficult being optimistic all the way, and even more tiring to live life as i did before; yet I am placing all my hope in God because Jesus is the only way. I know that with all the ups and downs of life, Jesus is in control. Hallelujah!
On a less moanful note, i'm really enjoying lab work! :)
Friday, March 06, 2009
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Tuesday, January 06, 2009
In memory of my dad
In memory of my dad:
I loved the smile on his face.. it was a radiant one, i knew it was from God. For 7 years, my dad lived a changed life, with us, he enjoyed every moment of this new found life in Jesus. He loved reading God's word and sharing it with me. Though i sometimes ignore him, i'd try my very best to listen. Often, i'd think that his Bible knowledge isn't very good, but as the years go by, I'd admire his deep understanding of the word. I knew that it was from God. Mom and I would always encourage him to facilitate a class since he was so enthusiastic with the word. Every morning, i'd hear him pray in the toilet and sometimes i'd accidentally see him kneeling down and praying so earnestly it puts me to shame. He'd always tell me how much he'd enjoy his cold bath in the mornings, it proved that at 71 years old, he was healthy. Every night, he'd lie in bed and listen to sermons or he'd blast hymns on our old set and fall asleep. He loved our company - TV, lights and chatterings.. it made him feel more secure, he said, and then he'll sleep soundly till the morning. Recently, all 3 of us would squeeze and fall asleep in the same room. I'll miss those times. He'd request for a family prayer and I love it because it brought us so much closer together. I don't quite remember my dad proper before the 7 years, but in Christ, I knew my dad almost inside out, and I love him dearly. On the 24th of December, Christmas eve, I had just arrived in the train station of Bejing from another Chinese city. My professor told me my dad was in hospital - that broke me into pieces. But when he said my dad had passed away, my world collapsed. Although i didn't get to see dad one last time, I did say a prayer for him that night.. i prayed that he'll have a good night's rest and that all the pain would go away. I have no regrets, dad and i had a good time together. Even though I miss him dearly, every second of the day, and I don't know what the future holds... i know that God would not leave me nor forsake me (Deut 31:6), and i know that God has wonderful plans for my mom and I (For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11). I believe that God, our heavenly father, will never leave me fatherless. I trust that my dad is rejoicing in heaven, whenever i look to the skies, i'd know that dad is looking down at us, cheering us on. This is my dad.
Pray for us.
"And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. He will wipe every tear from the eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." Revelation 21:3-4
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